The Bangalore Days

(First experience of shopping instore)

Raghav was afraid to go to shopping in the morning, so he left in the evening when it
was little dark. He went inside the store and first he asked for Saree. He was little afraid from
inside, but he had a confidence that currently he is in Bangalore and he is very new here,
hence no one will judge him. The salesperson was showing some sarees. The price was a bit
high according to his budget. Raghav’s thought was to buy cheap saree at a good price. He
did not want to spend 1000 rupees on some saree, which he is going to wear rarely.
He asked the shop guy for Some sarees in the range of Rs300/, the shopkeeper asked
why so cheap, Raghav told like Budget problem.
He liked one green saree in kind of transparent material with white floral all over it. He asked the price, the shopkeeper told 280,he selected it. He asked if readymade blouse is available in the shop. The shopkeeper toldyes. He asked what colours are available; the shopkeeper told black, cream, red and golden colour blouses are only available.

Raghav asked for the range of blouses, he told starting from Rs400/. Raghav did not
have choice here, as getting blouses is only difficult and here, he cannot negotiate on the
price. So, he agreed and asked the shopkeeper to show the blouses available. The shopkeeper asked the size. I felt little bit shy for a moment, as if I am a girl and some stranger is asking my bra size. I actually did not know the blouse size of mine; I just used to wear a blouse that is loose in size. But I recalled a conversation that I had with Jancy crossdresser.

I asked her how to measure our size for the ladies’ dresses that we wear. For that
Jancy told, being a male, we cannot ask any tailor to measure our body size for stitching
blouses. It will be awkward for us as well as the tailor. So, keep one thing in mind, before
selecting the blouse sizes and all. First option is to get one trial blouse which exactly and then
giving the material and ask the tailor to stitch as per the blouse size which is a bit
complicated. As they may ask for design and all, we will get stuck there.

So, I would suggest an easy or better option, your bra or blouse size will be exact size
of your vests and panty size will be exact size of your underwear. So, you can decide based
on that. Raghav’s Vest size is 85cm, so he decided to ask the blouse size of 34 which is when converted to inches. Raghav is very quick and accurate in mathematics. He showed some different variety of blouses, Raghav liked each and every model and wanted to buy all those, but he did not have much budget for buying all.

In his mind, he was thinking that he should have born as a girl, so that he could have
demanded to buy all those blouses and wear them as and when he wanted. In many cases,
ladies would be complaining that wearing saree and other ladies’ items will take more time,
but gents are enjoying by wearing shirt and pants, which are easy to wear and remove. On the other hand, there are some men who are complaining that girly dresses are attractive than the boring pants and shirts of men and Raghav is one among them.

After thinking these, Raghav came back to reality. Raghav asked the shopkeeper, why
only these colours are there. Shopkeeper said that these blouses will go matching with any
sarees. Black is the best for any saree, now golden and cream also goes well and red is the
second preferred colour after black. Raghav understood the reason behind it. Now, Raghav
asked suggestion from Shopkeeper which colour will go well with it. Shopkeeper suggested
cream is the best choice for the saree selected.

Raghav also had same choice in mind and he immediately choose that only. He asked
the shopkeeper to show the hooks, whether it is in good condition or not. It looked perfectly
stitched. He told ok and then he asked some suggestion for petticoat or inskirt. The
shopkeeper did not understand the term Petticoat, then he told inskirt, then he understood, for that also he asked suggestion and shopkeeper told, Cream colour or green colour or white will go well with this saree. He was against green or cream and decided to go with white colour as he liked petticoats in that colour and it was commonly used by most of women in his area, as he has seen them hanging in cloth drying area of his locality.

He told it costs around Rs150 and then he asked for a set of bra and panty of the same
size 34 as he has mentioned the size of blouse. He selected black bra and black panty. He did not think much on it. It cost Rs100/. Overall, the bill came to Rs930, he negotiated with skills and reduced to Rs900/, he told the shopkeeper thanks for helping him and if he finds the clothes are of good quality, the next time also help come to purchase in the same shop only.

(Trying out the self-purchased clothes)

He immediately went inside his room. This was the right chance as Ganesh was not
inside his room. He locked the door and immediately removed all the male clothes and wore
the bra, panty, inskirt, blouse and saree. The blouse was a little bit tight, but he comfortably
was able to wear it. Then, he draped the saree as he learnt from Jancy and kept the wig on his forehead. He was looking girly, but not fully.

He thought himself is he has prepared the dish but the flavours have not come up. So,
he understood that makeup is missing to make him completely girly. He immediately decided
to buy some makeup items. He watched some YouTube videos. He got some idea of the
makeup items which was recommended by Jancy as well like Foundation, lipstick and so on.
He went to the shop and bought them.

When one of the salesgirls asked, what happened sir? Why are you buying all ladies
items, Raghav replied that he is buying all this for his girlfriend, is there any problem for you
guys? The sales girl shut her mouth and gave the things requested by Raghav and he paid and immediately left that shop. He went to his room and started to watch the videos and apply makeup after wearing the dresses.

He felt very much happy on seeing the Reshmi again and the Reshmi which came in
front of the mirror was as good as the Reshmi that was brought out by Jancy Lakshmi.
Reshmi was bored after sometime, so she decided to try out one of the fantasies she had. She wanted to dress up girly and wash the clothes of her husband. Since, she doesn’t have any husband, she decided to wash the clothes of Raghav (her own male self) and decided to wash her own clothes. It was really a different experience and she liked a lot. She was very careful when she hears out footsteps nearby as she doesn’t want adjacent roommates to find out the girl inside her.

Reshmi was enjoying in girly dress and chatting in her facebook account, there were
some people whom she used to chat regularly, but that day no one was ready for video call.
She was bored and thought of sleeping. At that time, she was browsing some websites where
she can have crossdresser’s dating. She was always interested in seducing men and making
them fall for her. She came through one website named Romeo.

(Crossdresser Dating Website (Romeo)

He was new to that website. He decided to upload a profile picture of him, so that
people will start messaging him. More than the website for crossdresser, this is a website for
gay dating. But there was a good knowledge to most of them related to crossdressing. There
were some men, who were looking for normal men for fun and there were some, who want to
have fun with the crossdresser like me.

But I did not get an instant connect with anyone; something or the other was haunting
me. I felt bored, I felt it was better to stay away from them and I began to browse on other
crossdressing sites. In that time, I randomly found out a site named Indian gay chat. This site
had a common chat portal, where we can display a message about ourself on what we are
looking for. We can sign in with random and anonymous names, unless and until the same
name is taken by someone else.

That time I found fond of some of the names and tried pinging them. But there is one
problem with that application, suddenly if the messages are flooded, we would not be able to
reply for a conversation for few seconds and sometimes, our reply will not be delivered for
minutes, so the person might think that we are not interested in chat and they may leave our
conversation, sharing of mail id will not be accepted. We have to do it in a tricky way.
We need to type your text before @ the rate symbol separately and then we have to
type “at the rate”; instead of @ Gmail/yahoo dot com, instead of .com. I have chatted for
some time with some persons sharing my Gmail id and they satisfied the girl inside me via
video call and some messages kept coming from Romeo, but I did not notice them.
Somehow, I was passing the time by chatting and having video call with the guys. I
felt no one was so impressive that I really would want to meet them. All are looking for sex
only, nothing else. But I was looking for someone who could make love with a lot of interest
and passion. There were some decent and genuine guys, but they were staying a bit far from
my place, say some 30 odd kms away from me.

In Bangalore, 30 Kms is like 2 and half hours of travel, which means I will spend
almost 5 hours in travelling to and fro. I did not want that, so I have rejected their proposals
politely, even though I liked them. He felt like a real girl and felt it better to stay inside the
home. All the vacation came to an end, Raghav kept everything inside his secret bag before
sleeping that night as Ganesh will return back, the next morning. He ensured not even a
safety pin is left out.

(Narrow escape from Ganesh)

After that day, Raghav gets chance to Dressup here and there, but was not able to
involve in full-fledged dressing. Ganesh used to go to his native on weekdays, Raghav cannot
take leave often and he was almost tired on those days as work was hectic and could not get
enough time to dress up. When he feels like dressing up, Ganesh would have already returned by then. He was waiting for the right time to Dressup.

Raghav dresses up only on clothes and wig most of the time, he can hide dresses and
wig quickly. But he cannot change the makeup and all soon on working days, suddenly if
Ganesh come back in the middle of the work timing, it will be a problem for Raghav. So,
Raghav was very careful in taking steps regarding crossdressing. He never wanted to get
caught to Ganesh and that was the reason he was doing things in a slow manner and not
rushing on anything.

Days were going on and in-between Reshmi inside Raghav was getting more and
more feminine. She wanted to be in the arms of a man. But it was not happening as he was
very busy in work and Ganesh was too busy as it has been a while since Ganesh went to his
native. But secretly Raghav collected some sarees, chudis and leggings, bra, panties and
nighties. Secretly he was dressing up, he has not fully dressed as a girl with all makeup and
jewels.

Raghav felt like it is not happening, he actually has interest on Ganesh, but Ganesh is
already committed with one of the girls from his college, so suppose if he comes to know
about the feminine side of Raghav, then he might be in trouble. So, he decided to stay away
and play safe from Ganesh. Ganesh once curiously asked Raghav, why are you often

Shaving? Raghav replied that, I like to be clean shaven, because I wanted to feel like North
Indian actor.

Then Ganesh could recall that some actors like Sharukh Khan are mostly clean
shaven. But within mind voice, Raghav thought, being feminine, I cannot dress up in ladies
dress with moustache on my face, it will look very awkward. Somehow, I escaped from the
situation. Few days passed again like that. This time, it was a happy news for me, Ganesh
said that he is going on a 2-day trip with his teammates, I was thinking inside my mind, this
is what I am waiting for.

He asked me also to join, but I told, I have some important work and I cannot come.
He told me that, Friday night they will start and reach on Monday morning. It was already
11PM on Friday night, but still they have not started. I was not able to wait and eager for him
to leave, so that I can dress up. At 11, he got call he went down. I thought, he has left and the
eagerness inside immediately made me take the secret bag and I began to dress up.
Within 20 minutes I got ready in a nighty with full makeup as I wanted to have a
video call. When I was ready to start the video call, I heard someone knocking the door. I got
scared, initial idea is that I should change the dress and remove makeup before opening the
door, if they ask, why so late, then I can reply that I was in bathroom. I went quickly to
bathroom with my male dress and removed makeup and wore male dress.

The door was being knocked continuously for 5 minutes, then my phone started
ringing, it was none other than Ganesh. After 5 minutes, the knocking has stopped and phone
also stopped ringing, it took around 10 minutes for me to remove the makeup and get back to
normal male look. I kept dresses inside my bag and called him back. He asked, what were I
doing? I told I was not well, went inside toilet, that’s why unable to open.

Ganesh replied that, he was about to start, but one of his teammates, gave the helmet
he took from Ganesh. Ganesh wanted to keep in the room, that is the reason he had called. I
asked, now where you have kept? There is another teammate of Ganesh in 1 st floor, who is
also travelling for the trip. Since, I did not open the door, Ganesh has kept it in his room. This
was a miraculous escape.

(Continuity of Dressing up for a couple of days)

If it would have been some other person, he would have thought about leaving
crossdressing or quitting it, but our Raghav was a little bit different, he did not quit it and
decided to continue from next morning onwards, as he has just escaped from getting caught
to his roommate cum friend. That night, he was not able to sleep properly, what would have
happened if Ganesh would have come now. He might have thought that, Raghav is a gay and
immediately, he would have left the room and stayed away from me.

Or he would have humiliated me for being a sissy and talked about me to everyone
else? I was not able to guess, what would have happened, I would have been definitely
judged by my friend. Sometimes, we keep a small opinion on something, suppose if we
support for that cause, people might think us also to be one like that, this holds specifically
true to the one related to LGBTQ. After doing too much of over thinking, Raghav slept. Next
day, he got a message from Ganesh that they have reached the destination of their trip.

Raghav cursed himself that, he had only 48 hours of time left before his roommates
return, in that he had already wasted few hours, now it was his time to get ready. But, wait, he
was not interested in dressing and removing, he wanted to get all things ready before dressing up. So, the major requirements will be for food only. He wanted to go to shop and get the things ready for eating.

He went to one super market and ready to buy somethings there. He was always
interested in bread and bun; he bought some jam also. Then, he bought some readymade
chappathi, which he just needs to heat and eat. At the time in the store, he saw a veet hair
removal razor. He wanted to buy it, but he did not realize that, it is painful. He bought hair
removal cream; he wanted his skin to smooth and soft and girly. As soon as he reached his
room, he immediately switched on the water heater.

Even though he had some collection of sarees, he wants to have a quick bath and
dress up in nighty, as it is so hot and nighty give him that freeness he wanted. He kept a bra,
panty, inskirt and nighty on the bed and went to bathroom to have a bath. He took the wig
inside the bathroom along with a towel. As soon as he entered the bathroom, he removed the
boring manly dresses and threw them into wash basket. He had a fresh shower in bathroom.
He put the wig on his head and wrapped a towel around his chest.

He tied a band on his wig, so that it will be tight and won’t fall down from his head.
He came out of the bathroom, initially wore the panty and still towel wrapped around. Then
wore bra like a girl and hooked it from behind, now Raghav has atleast perfected the art of
hooking the bra. Then, slowly he wore the petticoat and removed the towel. Now, he
immediately wore the nighty from top and he found something missing. He kept the stuff
inside and felt like real boobs and finally, he wore a dupatta. This one, he has absorbed from
his area aunties, when they come out, they cover their nighties with dupatta.
He felt the same and his dressing part is now completed. The next thing is makeup
part. Even though, he dressed like a woman, he wants to complete that look with a makeup
which compliments him well. He immediately applied foundation, eyebrow, slight lipstick
and some face cream to complete his facial look. Then, he went to jewels section, he wore a
simple black necklace, which was long enough to just below his neck. Then, he tied a yellow
thread which gives him a feel of a married lady. Even though, no one tied around his neck, he
feels like he is a married lady.

He had a clip type ear ring and nose ring, which doesn’t need any piercing and it gives
him a complete look, he has anklets too, but did not want to wear it as it will make some
noise and neighbours may feel that some women or transgender is around. Raghav always
satisfies his desires as a girl but he is very much cautious.