i didn’t know, whom to share these problems. I had a account in my name it is known as Harini Sweety. I would like people to call me as Harini from my childhood. My mom used to tell Hari “nee seivathu suthmaga seri illai ” (What you are doing is not right), I used to hear as Harini what you are doing is not right ? From that time, my mind will be thinking, If someone won’t call me as Harini. So, I kept my name as Harini in Facebook.
There were a lot of guys who approach me to satisfy their sexual desires and crossdressers did not trust me. I felt heartbroken and wanted to give up crossdressing. I prayed to god, not to give such a difficult situation to any other person. I was not looking for many people, I just want a person, who can help me in dressing. They must be my protector, friend. But, I failed in finding the right person. Some asked my phone number and many asked for my pictures.
I never wanted to take pics, when I am crossdressed. Moreover, I did not want to share my pictures with strangers. What if they misuse my pictures for money. I thought of waiting for right person for 2 to 3 days, If no one comes, we will approach those sex seekers only. I felt that I can agree to their demands, if they help me in dressing up as women. My mind began the oscillation to become a women and I did not know, how to control it.
I was looking for someone to save. At that time, I met a good person in facebook. He told that he stay alone in an apartment and his wife died already. He told that he want to marry for second time. He told that he is not interested in marrying a women, the reason he stated that the women coming as second wife, won’t respect her husband much. This is just his perspective. He wanted to give life to a Transgender. He told that the persons whom he met, looked for money.
He understood about me. He told that he would help me. He told that there are a lot of dresses of his wife and he told that he will help me by giving them. He told that he wants my heart and not body. We began to chat a lot on facebook. Suddenly on a Friday, he asked me to come to his house. He told that he would help me in crossdressing. He told that he would help me to dress up like a women for those 2 days and make me enjoy my femininity.
He told that he has purchased a long hair wig as well as for me. I reached his house. I rang his calling bell. He opened the door and asked me to get inside his house. He locked the door, tied my eyes with a handkercheif and took me inside another room.
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