## **Chapter 7: Understanding Herself**
Through conversations, something became clear.
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She wasn’t gay.
Because she never saw herself as a man with another man.
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She always saw herself as a woman.
With a man.
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That difference mattered.
Deeply.
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She believed in something simple.
Binary.
Yin and Yang.
Masculine and feminine.
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And she knew—
Her energy was feminine.
Strongly feminine.
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“I’m a girl,” she whispered one night.
The words felt heavy.
But true.
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A girl—
In a body the world saw differently.
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But knowing the truth didn’t make life easier.
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Because what next?
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Could she transition?
Become a woman fully?
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The thought came.
But so did the fears.
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Family.
Society.
Responsibility.
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And one truth that broke her completely—
She wanted to be a **mother**.
A real one.
To carry a child.
Give birth.
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And she believed—
That was impossible.
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So she made a decision.
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“I will live as Sushant.”
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Even if it meant hiding Nisha forever.
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