My name is Krishna. I used to live in Vijayawada with My father's name is Vasu Dev I love him very much. My mother's name is
Durga Devi. I have one brother he was 2 years elder to me. His name is Sri Kiran. He is like my second father.
My father works in a private company as manager. My mother was very sensitive from her childhood. She works as a teacher in a
small school. School management provide free education for me and my brother as my mother was working as teacher in their
school. My brother has done MCA in scholarship as he was brilliant student and now he was doing job in Hyderabad as software
engineer.
Where as I was doing b-tech 2nd year. I didn't cut my hair from first year as my college has no objections. Now my hair was
shoulder length hair. My mother feel sad as she didn't have any girls either. My mother feel happy with my hair as she can atleast
take care of my hair. I used to take a head bath with oil twice a week. My hair become very strong, thick and shiny like every girl
wish to have. I can see jealous in People eyes mainly in my class girls eye. Some of them used to ask me what was secret of my hair.
For that I used to say it is my mother's secret. This is me when I was going to college.
While thinking that college days are very happy. suddenly There is a bad news. My father had a heart stroke and died.
I love my father very much, It made go into depression and I stopped going to college. It has been 3 months, I Got a call from my
college that. Exams are coming. But in this 3 months I made a habit to use "drug". Sometimes even in home I used to drunk. My
mother feel very sad. One day I drank fully and when I was coming to my home on my bike that I had a minor bike accident.
Doctors said to take rest for 2 months. My elder brother came home. By seeing my situation he started scolded me. At last he said
If i did any wrong again, then he will send me out from the house and told me take 2 months bed rest. My brother took permission
from my college to written exam after I was cure.
One month has completed I started to do my little chores myself. Now my hair reached below my shoulder. My mother used to
apply hair oil regularly and now i used to take head bath trice a week. When I was eating my hair used to fell into the rice. It was
continued for some days. When my mother saw that she made my hair to make together and put a clip to hold it. I said no. But my
mom said If you didn't put clip, then your hair will get damaged So with my mother request I started putting clip in my hair. Daily
my work is to take bath and get my hair done by my mother and then we had our breakfast then My mom used to go to school and
she will come only in the evening. afternoon I am the one who eats rice. In these I started to cook rice and curries on my own.
After lunch I started to take rest.
One Sunday my Mother was cleaning house and I was helping her in small things. But when I was doing the work my hair always
fall on my face. By seeing my struggle my mother started to laugh and said to me that first we will do your hair and then we can
continue cleaning. she Oiled my hair and then she started to comb but it take long time to finish when compare to before. So asked
her what are you doing, she cursed. At last she put a ponytail on my cheeks. When I was seriously opening pony, mom scolded me
and said that if you want to grow long hair, you should wear something like this and may be more, then your hair will look good, if
not I will cut it. My mother know I love my hair for that I will do anything. So I continued to work in the same way. It was okay
for me to stay at home. Daily Mom used set my hair in pony before she gone to school. I also started to like pony and it feel very
comfortable. I don't have a big beard and mustache, so when I look in the mirror I look like the Teenage girl.
Two month has completed but I can't forget my father when I saw his photo I started to become sad. Now my bed rest was
completed so I can ride my bike. On that day I again came home by drinking. By seeing me my mother made a big fuss she didn't
ate anything. In that angry she burnt all My clothes. Next day I did my bath and I open my wardrobe to find no clothes to wear
then I started to recall what happen yesterday night. When I asked mom for clothes, mom didn't say anything. I understand that
mom is angry. I can wear my brother clothes but they are very loss for my size. Because He was fat guy and I was slim like a girl.
So I went my mom room and started to search in her wardrobe and at last I decided to wear nightie and I wear one nightie and
stood in front of her. Mom smiled at me once. I felt happy too. Mom said I was looking good in nightie with ponytail and put one
kiss on my forehead. she said I can wear this nightie untill she brought me new clothes. Then I ask her how can I go out in this
nightie mom? For that she replied What do you have to do outside, you only go out to drink? If this is the case, you won't have a
chance to go out. I started to wear nightie from that day onwards to make her happy. One day in the evening I heard doorbell I
thought it was my mother so I opened the door to find my brother in front of me. He started to laugh. I can't understand why he
was laughing loud when I see down I came to know I was in nightie now and become statue. I don't know what to say and how to
react.
After some time he ask me will you allow me inside and snap his finger. With that action I came to senses and give him a way to
come in. I was silent and he was still laughing. It continued till my mom come. When my mom say my brother
Mom - Kiran when did you came?
Kiran - just now mom.
Mom - have you drink water?
Kiran - no mom. See how she stood like a statue. She didn't ask me.
Mom - Krishna bring water for us.
I went to kitchen and took water for them in two glasses.
Kiran - mom what all this why he was in nightie.
Then mom started to narrate whole story and then at last she said it was the only way I found him not to allow him out.
Kiran - it's right mom but he was a boy mom.
Mom - yes he was a boy but he himself want into it.
Kiran - as you wish mom. I don't say any word against you. If I thought his future was collapsed then I will not tolerate.
Mom - I know what to do and when to stop.
Kiran - ok mom. I have full faith on you.
Mom - Kiran tomorrow we have to go shopping to buy new clothes to Krishna as he can't wear nightie in day time.
Kiran - ok mom.
That day I can't face my brother. After some time he said I was looking beautiful in avatar and he was happy for my future. I
started to feel little comfortable. After dinner I slept with my brother in one room. And my mother slept in another room. I can't
get sleep as I feel embrace to sleep beside my brother in nightie. Next day was Sunday my mother school was holiday and on that
day when come out from my room after having my daily chores I saw my mother and brother was talking about a matter very
seriously. But when they saw me they stop to discuss. I ask my mom what happen anything serious say to me you may find solution.
But she said nothing. Well after we finish our breakfast they said they are going out to buy clothes for me and she has little
shopping. I was happy that after a gap I can came out of this nightie. In that happiness I started prepared my brother's favourite
dish for lunch. I completed to preparing dish before they come.
They come with many shopping bags. My mother order me to serve food to them as they are very hungry. So we three started to
have our lunch. My brother took leave from us and went to catch his train After finishing his lunch. While he was leaving he said
don't say any word against mom she was doing this for your bright future. After some time When I saw into those bags I found
ladies clothes . Like chudidars, skrits and Langa Voni. After I completed in checking all the shopping bag. I complaint to my
mother that you took worng bags.
Mom - no we took right bags
Me - no mom it contain ladies clothes.
Mom - yes I know it ladies clothes and I brought them for you.
I got angry on my mother and went into the room saying that I don't want any clothes. Next day I got up and took a bath. Then I
wore my pant and shirt which I wore on that day. It was the only my male clothes I have. By seeing me my mother did nothing and
continued with her work. That day was completed. Next day also I wore same dress after the bath. My mother said nothing. I wore
same dress for four days I was smiling bad even perfume can't help me.
Mom - you are smiling like a pig. Go and wear your new clothes.
Me - no those are not my clothes. I will never wear them
On that day I wash my clothes and meanwhile I wore towel and when my clothes were dry I worn. It continued for two week. In
this two week they become torn. Now I have no clothes. So my ego made me not to wear those girly clothes. So I started to wear
only towel. It continued for two day and I got fever due to cold as it was now time for winter. Mom become very sad and said to me
that she brought those clothes only for my better future and said remember your brother words what he said when he was leaving.
We are doing this to make you get out of bad habits.
I started to think and came to understand her. She was doing this for my future. With shy I said do as you wish mom. My mom was
happy and then she took those shopping bag. From that she took innerware and give me. Those are panty, bra and camisole. By
seeing that I said no but my mom said I required this and you can't wear them without this. She made me convinced and then I
wore pantie and then she made wear bra and then camisole. Later she stuffed some cotton balls in my bra cups. Then pant and
top. When I saw down I can see Bulge on my chest it was like real girl chest. Then she started to pin dupatta on my shoulder.
Me - no mom I don't require it.
Mom - you have to wear and it must.
Me - I was not a girl to wear this and I may not require it as I will be in home.
Mom - in home or out you have to wear this to cover your BREASTS. I won't allow you out without this.
Me - (in anger) mom I was not a girl and they are not real breast to cover.
Mom - if you don't want to wear this DUPATTA then remove this dress. I will say to your brother that you are not listening to my
words.
I started to think why I was doing this buzz. I have to do when she made me wear inners. I have wear most girly cloth BRA and
now this DUPATTA can't do anything so I said ok. My mom made me wear and said I have to see you always wear dupatta 24/7. I
shake my head to say ok. Then she took all clothes from shopping bag and started to arrange in my wardrobe. I started to count
those dresses they are 5 chudidars 5 skrit alone with its matching tops and 2 Langa Voni. At last she took all inner from one
shopping bag when I saw then they are of different type and different colour to match those clothes. When she was arranging I
started to feel itching at some parts mainly at my private place. By seeing me she ask me what happen.
Me - nothing mom I feel itchy due to new clothes.
Mom - it was not because of new clothes.
Me - then.
Mom - I know the solution. Tomorrow when you are going for bath remember be I will say you.
Me - ok mom
That day I slept in that dress. I feel hard to sleep due to tightness of bra. On that day I can't get sleep. Next day morning when I
look into mirror I say my face like a young girl who was just got up from her bed because my hair was messy and my dupatta. I
can't say in my words. After that I finish my morning chores and when I started to go for bath I remember that my mother said to
remember her for solution. So I call my mother to ask for solution. She give a bowl containing some cream and said how to use. I
applied it on my body as she said and when I took bath after some time my body hair started to get wash with that cream. I don't
know what to do so I completed my bath and came out with towel around my waist to find my mother in my room with another
chudidars along with its matching inners. I took pantie and wore in bathroom. I have to say one thing that I feel softness of panty
because I have no hair on my body. I come out in towel around my waist.
Mom - Krishna from now you have to wear your towel above your chest under your hands like a girl.
Me - but mom...
Mom - no more but's. Wear this bra.
I took that bra and started to wear. I feel hard to wear. So I ask my mother help. She hold my hands and guide me to wear it. She
made me do it for some time. Then she stuffed my bra cups. Then I wore camisole, next pant, then top. Next came the dupatta. She
made to fold and pin it on my shoulder. When I did she said good girl now come breakfast was completed. I feel shy when she said
good girl. After some time I come to know I was shying like a girl. Then like every day I went to puja mandir and did small prayer
to God and I put Sindoor on my forehead between my eyebrows. By seeing me my mother said I was looking good and she made a
kiss on my cheek. When we finish your breakfast. My mother did my hair in pony and went to her school. These soft clothes on my
hair less body making me feel horny but I controlled. After some time when I was in my room I saw a girl in chudidar without
makeup in mirror facing me. I can say with makeup this girl will definitely look like a angel. If she was real then I will marry her
on the spot. After some staring I made my lunch and had it when it was hot. I need a rest very badly as yesterday night I have not
slept to due tightness of bra. Same as night I feel hard to sleep wearing bra so I took my top camisole and then bra. After that I
wore camisole, top and I pinned dupatta. After that I got my sleep very peacefully.
In the evening my mom came into house using her second key. She saw I was sleep like a nothing happen. By seeing my cute face
she made a kiss on my forehead. By that I was out from sleep. When I saw my mom in front of me I asked her mom you. How did
you came? She replied that By using her spare key. I said oh ok. By seeing my flat chest she did you remove your bra. I bow my
head down and said mom I feel hard to sleep wearing bra. My mom said ok and then she order me come out after wearing bra.
I did what she said but when I started to come out of my room I saw that girl again in mirror so I was looking her face and stood
their for some time. Meanwhile, my mom came from behind and asked with a smile that did you like her. I said her (in trance) that
yes mom. When I completed those words I came to my senses and said no mom nothing I was just seeing how I look. My mom said
ok ok. I feel ashamed to face her. After that I helped my mom in kitchen as usual. But today I feel disturb due to my dupatta. By
seeing my struggle my mom give some tips to me how to handle it in different situations. I liked those moments and I can see
happiness in my mom eyes. She was starving to have a girl child to her now she can have one that is me. After completion of dinner
my mom call me into her room when I went.
Mom - Krishna will you do one thing for me.
Me - mom first say what was that.
Mom - promise me first I will say it was very easy and by that you can look beautiful.
Me - (in my mind voice I know she was planning for some thing) but I can't do anything now so I give her promise I will do as you
said.
Mom - from today you have wear these and showed earrings, bangles and anklets.
Me - mom it was too much.
She started to put earrings in my already pierced ear my bad luck holes didn't close. Then she put 6 bangles in each hand and
anklets which have lots of bells.
Mom - Krishna Got used to sleep wearing bra. If you got used to that you can feel free when you wear other tight dresses.
Me - But mom why I have to wear tight dresses mom I can wear these chudidars which are easy and loss to wear.
Mom - No these chudidars skrits and Langa Vani are for some day but sarees are permanent.
I was shocked to hear the word saree.
Me - mom I can't wear sarees. You want me to be in home and made me wear these chudidars. Chudidars are high for me to not to
go out.
Mom - you have grown up. A girl in your age have to wear Langa Vani but as you are my daughter so you have wear sarees.
Me - but mom I was your son not daughter
Mom - no more but's and do as I say. Or I will not talk to you from now.
She know I will do anything for her happiness. From that day i started to wear bra even to sleep. Slowly I got used to thightness of
bra. In this days I started to get ready on myself daily I have to wear matching bangles to dress and sometime I have to comb my
hair myself. I can wear every thing on my own. My mom made me wash my clothes on my own So for me it was extra task. I see
changes in my body as my fat started to get burn and my belly started to become flat and in shape like a girl.
After some days on Sunday when my mom was in home she made me wear sky blue colour skrit and black colour top to match
with skrit along with matching bra, pantie, camisole and petticoat. Then she started to comb my hair which was reaching my mid
back. Today she was taking more time when compare to before and I can feel something was different. Aftersome time she kept a
single braid on my shoulder. I high tone I said mom and started to remove that but she stopped me and said please keep that for
me. By seeing her face I said ok. I feel different and hard to walk wearing skrit.
There was no different in my daily routine now I have to wear a skrit and top along with inners and matching bangles. From that
day onwards I didn't took my earrings and anklets they become my part of my body. When I was ready I will help my mom in
kitchen and when she went to school I have wash utensils and then our used clothes. When I have completed washing and speeding
them on rope on my terrace. In that time My heart used to beat fast if anyone saw me then I future. After that I have to prepare
lunch and then I will have my lunch. Then I can have some sleep. In the evening before my mom came I clean my house with
broom stick. After that I did face wash and make my face fresh. When my mom came I prepare tea for us and I serve her. Then
after some time I help my mom in preparing dinner. After dinner my mom used to train me in various girly accepts like how to
behave with others like girl. How to handle different situation like a girl. Slowly my mom started to prepare me mentally a girl.
When It was time for bed I will change my clothes to chudidar but some time I used to sleep in skrit and top.
Days were passing my mom made me learn how to braid my own hair in different styles to match different occasions. I was
confused why I need to learn as I will be in home. From some days I can't get sleep in the afternoon so I started to study. As I have
to write my exams. After some day my mom made me woke up early in the morning and told me to get ready When asked why,
Mom - Krishna it was start of month sharvan.
Me - what it was means.
Mom - This Sravana month is very special for girls.
Me - Then Why did you wake me up so early?
Mom - you should be like a girl today
I was shocked again and I started to sleep again by screaming mom. My mom started to convince me. I have no interest in all this
but I thought I was living like a girl from some day then what will happen if I did month of shravan. When I said ok she was over
the moon.
She made take head bath with soap nuts and that she applied Sunnipindi on my body and then when she finish my bath My mom
applied sambrani to my hair. I felt like PRINCESS. Then my mom went to her room to change her saree as it become wet. In
meantime I put on a fan in my room. After some time my came to my room and took new dress from my wardrobe. When I see that
it is Langa Voni. i was shouted to see that and I said no. Then my mom started to become sad. By seeing her face I admitted that I
will stay in home. Then she give me bra and pantie I wear it in bathroom and come. Next my mom made me wear blouse it fit me
like it was made for me. Then she made me wear petticoat and Langa and tied the knot very tightly. When I complaint it to her.
She said it has to be like that. Then come the last piece of cloth Voni. Mom taught me how to dress in that. I also try for some time.
Then my Mom started braids my hair today she added hair extensions and at last she added jadagantalu. When she put my hair on
my shoulder I feel lot of weight. I know I can't do anything now. so I did nothing. Next she started applying some makeup I sit
their like a idle after my makeup done my mother started to put jewelry. first took my earring out and started to put heavy
jhumkas which has extension which had to pin in my hair. I said these are heavy. She said for this one day from Tomorrow you can
change to light one. she put two golden and 12 bangles in each hands. Then golden harram around my neck. Then golden waist
band. Then came golden maangtikka. When everything was completely ready, she took me in front of the mirror. I saw a angel in
mirror and I was seeing her like that without a blink. My Mom noticed me and asked if the girl liked that girl. I said yes mom and
hug her and started to cry. Mom also cried. After some time my mom adjust my makeup.
After that I ask my mom whether she is going to school or not, she said no, I have taken leave for today because I have to do pooja
and go to the temple. I said okay and started to leave to watch TV. But my mom took me along with her to do pooja. Mom I can't
do this girl Pooja. My mom said who said this was a girl Pooja. But mom. Now listen to me and do this Pooja for your well being.
So I sat near pooja. It took two hours to complete Pooja. After Pooja completed I started to go into my room. My mom called me
when I opened my room door and said that we have go to the temple. I was fear to go out in this avatar. If a person find out I was
boy dressed as girl then they will made me into comedy piece for them. So I said I will not come out of house and if you want you
go to temple, but mom says that, after completion of Pooja we have to go to temple for ammavari Darshanam, more over who will
find you, I am there to save you, anyone can find a beautiful girl wearing Langa Vani but no one can find you are a boy dressed as
girl. By my mom word I got convinced fact is that I was now an angel who was wearing this Langa voni. My mom give one of her
sandals to me to wear. Then when I step out of house I started to get tension that my friends or my neighbour may find me out on
the way. We went to Ammavari temple in auto. Outside the temple their are many stalls who sells coconut tree, flowers and all
Pooja items. One old woman stopped us and asked to buy some flowers to put in your daughter hair. My mother has put some
flowers but she didn't put flowers in my hair. Without making much bargain my mom took 3 murras jasmine garland and put in
my braid. The smell of jasmine was taking me into trance. By seeing me like this my mom become so happy and said I was her gold
and made a kiss on my forehead. I was happy to see my mom happy. After that we entered into temple and I complete all the
rituals as my mom said. Then after the dharsham we started to leave to our house but on our way we find our neighbour aunty.
Who was our long relative as per relation she was my mother-in-law. By seeing us she wished us and after some well being she ask
my mother who was I. Then my mother said I was her sisters daughter Radha. I forgot to say you that my full name was Radha
Krishna.
After talking for some time with aunty my mom took leave and started to move towards our home, when we reached I directly went to my room and I was looking in the mirror to see how I was and my mother came from behind and asked Radha, do you like being like this? I shyly said yes mom. She kissed me again said that I was her golden daughter. Then my mom say to me that Ok Radha change your clothes and take some rest for some time. I have no strength to change mom. My mom said ok you can sleep but be careful while sleeping. I said ok mom and slept for some time like that. I got very sound sleep. After some time My mom woke me up. I saw time it was evening. She said me to take bath and gave me set of inners to wear. I went to take bath and come out wearing bra, pantie and tied towel around my chest to find another Langa voni on my bed. I wear that Langa voni as my mom trained me and changed my bangles to match my dress, then I put bindi sticker on my forehead. Remaining all were same which I wore morning.
After I was ready I went to living room. By seeing me my mom called me for Pooja. I said that mom I won't come to temple. My mom said ok no temple. Then I went near my mom and sat beside her and I did as my mom said and completed the Pooja but now it took less time when compare to morning Pooja. After completion of Pooja my mom remove my heavy earrings and my ears got my earrings back. Then she rebraid my hair by removing hair extensions and gadagantalu. After that we prepared our dinner and ate that. Later we had some chit chat. At last she asked me that Radha I want one help from you. In happiness I said I will do whatever help you want mom. Then she said that Radha from tomorrow you have to do Pooja to goddess, every year I can't do this Pooja daily because I have my job to do, but I will be with you on Sundays. You have to do this Pooja's upto completion this month of Sravanam. I said ok mom I will do as per your wish mom. When I said ok my mom was very happy and said you are my gold and kissed on my cheeks. I became shy to face her. By seeing my face she said Radha please save some shyness in you to show to your husband. With the word husband i started to show angry face towards my mom. My mom said now stop this acting and go to your room for sleep but before that change your clothes. After that I went to my room and remove all the jewelry and then I changed my clothes to chudidar. On that day I can't get sleep. Because I feel alone in my room. Then I came to understand that I removed my bangles and anklets. So I wear them immediately. With the sounds from them I feel I was not alone and then I got my sleep.
Next day after the bath I wear another Langa voni with minimal jewelry. When I came out my mother prepared every thing required for Pooja and give a book which contain mantras and instructions to do Pooja. Then she said that what I have to do compulsory and what I can do extra if I want. Then she leave to her job by preparing break fast and said meet you evening. I said bye when she left.
After my mom went to her job I started to do the Pooja and when I started to to Pooja by read the Slokas in the book and followed the instructions given in that book. After completion of Pooja i saw in last page of book it contain why we have to do this Pooja and how. I want to read that but I was very hungry so first I decided to eat breakfast. After the breakfast I did my daily chores like washing utensils and clothes. Then I prepared my lunch and eat. When I completed my lunch I remember about the book so I started to read that last page in that book.
When I read carefully that book I came to know this Pooja was done the girls and women for their family and mainly for their husbands or for their future husbands well beings. I got more anger on my mom that she made me do this Pooja and made me a girl who was praying to get good husband. On that day I decided to end this game when my mom come to home. I was seeing time when my mom will come and the time was come and my mom come. By seeing my anger my mom guessed some thing was worng so she was very silent. Then I started to fire on my mom.
Me - mom why you made me do this girl’s pooja.
Mom - who said you that it was ladies Pooja.
Me - mom no one said. I read the last page of this book.
Mom - let me see once.
My mom took that book and read last page. After she completed that she asked me if I read full.
Me - yes mom i read.
My mom give me that book by pointing some lines and said me to read. After that I read that lines. In that lines it written that when a women can't do this Pooja then her children can do this Pooja on account of her.
Me - But mom this Pooja is done for well being of her family and hus.......
Mom - haa... Yes this Pooja is for well being of their family. Can't you do for your family?
Me - mom I will do it for my family but that was not my problem this is for their future husbands.
Mom - No it's not compulsory radha. Leave this matter and I was so hungry we have to prepare dinner.
I become silent. My mom started to move towards kitchen. While she was moving she observed Pooja mandir and by seeing me she asked me have you done Pooja now. I said no. Then my mom said me to get fresh up for Pooja and she started to arranged every thing to Pooja. I stood their like statue. Seeing me not moving My mom become anger and said can't you listen to me. I started to move towards my room slowly. My mom said do it fast. I did as my mom said. After the bath I wear another half saree did my makeup and 6 matching bangles in each hand.
When I came out my mom was in kitchen. By the sound from my anklets she said to me that continue with your Pooja I will prepare dinner. I have no interest to do but I can't argue with my mom so i started to do Pooja. When I was doing Pooja sincerely My mom was observing me from kitchen and become happy. When I finish my Pooja I find my mom was waiting for me near dinning table with dinner and observing me. I made action to ask her what. She said nothing. Then we had your dinner. After that I went to sleep. Next day was same but after the bath I wear skrit and its top and came out by seeing me my mom become angry and said what are you wearing go and change to Langa voni. I said but mom why can't I do like this. With angry My mom said do what i said. I did as my mom said.
Now a days my mom started to get fire on me if I said any word against her. Every day morning and evening i started to do pooja. In the beginning my mom did everything but day by day she started to leave one after the other work to me and every Sunday she always made me to do and she supervise me. With in 2 weeks my mom leave all the Pooja works on me but every day she check if I did everything perfect are not. In these days I only wear Langa voni in day time and for bed i can choose either chudidar or skrits. I started to apply eye liner, instead of bindi sticker I used to put kumkum on my forehead. Every Friday my mom made me to take bath using turmeric paste. Because of turmeric bath my body hair has started to reduce and my skin started to get glow.
Nearly 20 days has completed and end of sravanam month has coming to end. Last day of that month was on Friday and it was like goddess favourite day and last date of Sravanam. On that day I was made to woke up at early. I took head bath with soap nuts and turmeric paste. When I came to my room after the bath. My mom was all ready in her new saree and beside her there was another red new saree and it's matching blouse and inners. By seeing my mom said it's time for you to wear saree. I was horrified but I can't stop this so I wear bra and pantie in bathroom. Then I wore petticoat and blouse which was in blue colour and had well design. Now my mom started to drape me my first saree on me. I was feeling it was end of my manliness. She finished to drope me the saree with help of several safety pins. After the all dressing now she made me sit on stool near dressing table and started to bride my hair and after that she did my makeup from foundation to lipstick. Lipstick was in light pink colour which was very hard to find. Then she give jewelry box to me to wear and went out to arrange everything for final Pooja. When I opened that jewelry box it contain every piece of ornament that a lady can wear while she was in saree. With no option left I started to wear all the ornament they are Maangtikka and it's extensions, golden heavy earrings and it's extension (champaswaralu), necklace, armlets, bangles which has hangings, waistband and last anklets.
After all was completed I went near my mom to Pooja mandir. When my mom see me she came near me and said my pretty daughter Radha lets start our last Pooja of this year Saravanan month. My mom made me do Pooja and she guided me to do from my back. It took nearly three hours to complete my Pooja. When Pooja completed I was happy because I can out from Langa Voni. But my happiness was there for sometime because my mom said now we have to go to temple for darshan. I said I can't come to temple wearing saree as I have no practice in managing saree. Then my mom said temple will be free from crowd and we can complete in few minutes so come to temple like this and if you come in saree to temple then goddess may give you went you wish as she like traditional girls more. But mom I was not a girl to do all this.
My mom took me out of the house and lock the main door without a single word. After locking the door she didn't said any word and started to move towards road. I followed her. She had book a auto to temple and when it's arrived we both went to temple. I was shocked to see temple as it was very crowd then first day when I come in Langa voni. My mom made me get down the auto and she paid the ride. I asked my mom to buy special darshan tickets so that we can finish very fast but my mom said no specials and all Come and follow me. When we stood in queue some one called my mom. When we saw who was it. It was none other then the aunty (mother in law) and her daughter Gopika. My mom said hi and asked them are they for darshan. They said yes and joined us. When they came near, aunty said I was looking gorgeous in this saree and appreciate my mom to made me like that. My mom said I did nothing she was the one who asked me to ready her like that. I was shocked to hear. Then aunty said you are really lucky Radha, see my daughter I asked her to wear saree or at least Langa voni but she said no. At last she obeyed to wear this kurti as I said they won't allow to temple in western dresses.
I was shy to face them, As Gopika was a girl and was in kurti where as me a men in saree well dolled up as a girl. I didn't open my mouth upto we complete our darshan. When we completed our darshan we took leave and I feel happy as my identity was safe. After the we came to home. My mom said me to prepare lunch I started to do and my mom took rest. After I prepared lunch I called my mom to dinning table and I serve food to both of us. After the lunch
Me - mom can I change my dress to something comfortable.
Mom - wait I want to say something about the same.
Me - what is that mom?
Mom - wait here.
My mom want to her room and brought one bag.
Mom - from now I want you to wear this.
When I opened the bag it contain some of her daily wear saree and it's blouses.
Me - Mom I can't.
Mom - why Radha you can wear them as I alter my blouse to your size and yes I will buy new sarees when time came.
Me - Mom not about the fitting and all. I can't wear this daily. I want my clothes.
Mom - These are your clothes from now.
Me - mom enough is enough I can't wear sarees. I want my pant and shirt. I was changed and I won't drink again.
Mom - no i can't take that risk now. Stop arguing with me. If you want to stop this now then convince your brother to say stop this right now.
I made a call to brother it was ringing I was confident that my brother will stop this but I started to get fear by seeing my mom confidence. After some rings my brother lift the call and said say Radha. I was shocked to hear name Radha from my brother mouth.
Brother - Radha can you hear me.
Me - ha...
Brother - say why you call me?
Me - I have change and I will not drink again in my life so please say to mom to stop all this.
Brother - I want to say ra but I can't say as I enquired about this to doctor.
Me - what he said.
Brother - I can't say now and continue to do what mom has said without any word.
Me - (all my hope was lost) but..... She wants me to wear sa...... Sar...... Saree daily
Brother - Do it Radha it won't eat you. It was piece of cloth.
Me - No I can't. I want my pant and shirt
Brother - No you have to do. If not what you did upto now will get wasted. I don’t want that to happen.
Me - it was me who did and I can't do what I want.
Brother - if you are loving both of us then do what mom said.
I become silent to his words. I know they both know about my weakness. So they are using when they can't made me to do. He said bye Radha enjoy your days. I handed phone to mom. They talked for some time. After the call end my asked me are you ready. I said yes with my head. We both went to my room and then I removed all the jewelry and saree and blouse which I was wearing. My bra become full wet due to my sweat. So my mom made me wear another bra and then blouse which she brought. After that she showed me how to differentiate which was pallu and which was another end. Then she give that saree to me. Then she guide me to wear saree. It took some time results was not bad as I think. Then again she made me do for sometimes. With each passing trial It was getting simple for me to wear and i started to wear fast. At last my mom was happy with my hardwork.
When I was successful to wear saree arranged all those sarees in my wardrobe and while arranging she said that your brother has said that he got a call from your college. They said in two weeks you have your SEM exams. explained everything about your situation to them and convince them so you can write your exams without any tension. So from now don't think about anything and prepare well for exams. I asked her mom means I have to wearing saree aaa.... No you can wear chudidars or skrits. I face expression become mix with happy and sad. Now I can't do any thing so I kept all my thoughts aside and started to prepare hard for exams. I covered all the syllabus for exams and got confident. The day came and first day my mom made me wear cream colour top which has full sleeves and violet colour long skrit and made me tie that skrit above my belly so that my navel was not exposed more. Then I wear less jewelry like light but large jhumkas, anklets which has no bells (I said it was exam so I we have to silent), golden bracelet in right hand and ladies watch in left. Simple golden chain in neck. Today my mom made my hair which was upto my ass in free flowing style.
When I started to move out to exam my mom came near me with a dupatta to match with my dress and pinned on my shoulder. Then I went to exam centre in my brother car as I can't drive my bike now. When I reached exam hall my heart started to beat fast. When I step out from the car. I saw my teacher waiting for someone. I got some courage and went near him. He can't identify me so I said sir I was Krishna your student. Then he said I can't believe it was you Krishna and I was waiting for you. Principal sir has said everything to me but I can't believe my eye you are a boy (he said in low voice). I become shy to hear his words. By seeing my face he said you have changed a lot. Ok Come Iet me introduce you to board and I already informed everything about you to the board. As you have some sin and to clear that you have to wear girls clothes. So they are ok with it and he introduced me to board and all the invigilator so that I can write my exam without any tension. After all I went to my exam room and I got seated in my place. Beside me no one was come I waited to see who will come. When exam was started some one came and asked to get in. It was none other then Gopika my Mardal (sister in law) I was shocked to see her here she was in jeans pant and top. She came and sat beside me when she saw me.
Gopika - hii.... You are Radha right.
Me - yes Gopika. It was me.
Gopika - Radha you are very beautiful in this dress.
Me - Thank you and you look same Gopika.
Invigilator - keep quite. Exam will start now if any one talk or turn their heads then I will send them out.
As exam started I started to write without moving my head. After some time I saw Gopika she was not writing anything. When she saw me I signal her to write but she said she don't know answers. I saw invigilator he was sitting on chair so I put my answer sheet aside to show her answer. She started to write and I started to write my answer. When she completed to write that answer she made noise with pen. Then I put another answer paper for her to write. It continued till she complete all answers. After the exam she hug me and kiss on my cheek and said thank you very much Radha.
It was my first kiss from a girl that to a Gopika my Mardal. I started to sweat. By seeing me she started to laugh and said cool down Radha and she started to move with her friends and said bye see you on next exam. I went to my house in my car. I went to my house my mom was in her school so I prepared my lunch and had it. After the dinner I took book to read but my thoughts were on Gopika. I can't focus on my studies. After some time I started to read with full concentration. When My mom came home she saw me in same skrit she started to fire on me why I was in that. I said mom I forget please excuse me for this day. Then she said ok but you have to get punishment. She went to her room and come with silicone breast forms which can be glue on my chest. Then she glued on my chest i didn't open my mouth. I can't stand on my feet as my centre of gravity has changed. Then I wear bra and that top again. When I wear bra I got some support and now I like the feeling of bra. Bra cups were filled with those forms. Then we preparing your dinner she asks me how I wrote my exam and how was my day. I said every thing but I didn't said about the kiss. After that we had our dinner.
Next day I have no exam. That day when I was taking bath. I saw my reflection in mirror I saw my breast they are like real one. When I touch I feel they soft and feel like real. Then after the bath I wear dark cream colour cotton saree and wear matching bangles and put kumkam on my forehead. Then I had light makeup. When my mom saw she said good and I was looking like beautiful. I made Pooja to God And then I had breakfast with my mom. After the breakfast my mom went to her school and I started to do my work. Slowly I got used to saree. After the lunch I started to prepare for my exams. In the evening when my mom came we prepared dinner. After the dinner had some talk and I slept after the some preparation. Next I have exam so I wore one skrit and top and went exam hall their I find Gopika in another shirt and pant. By seeing me she came near my car and whishes me good morning. I said same. Then we talk for some time and went to exam room same like before I showed every answer to her and she wrote those answers. After the exam I dropped her at her house in my car and went to my car. After that I reached my house and had my lunch. Then I changed to saree. Like this I completed five exams and I have only one exam left to complete.
On fifth exam day after completion of exam Gopika asked me to come to last exam in a dress I said i have only chudidars. She said ok I will give you my dress I think it will fit to you also. She give one dress of her black dress to me when I drop her at her home and she said after the exam I want you to come along with me. On that day I said all this to mom and she said ok. So on last day I wore that black dress. It was like full length gown. Gopika also give matching earrings to that dress so I wear them and went to exam hall. By seeing me said I was looking beautiful in black my face was glowing in black. I said her to stop. But she said it was real and said she has suprise for me. When I ask what was the suprise she said she will say after the exam. We had some chat and went to write exam.
In the exam when she asked me to show answers I asked her to say the suprise. But she didn't said so atlast I showed her the answer. After the exam completed I was waiting at my car for her. When she came.
Me - where was my suprise Gopika.
She - I will say Radha wait get into car.
I sat in driving seat and she sat beside me. I started the car and moved as she guided. After some time.
Me - can you say to me please. I can't wait.
She - it nothing RADHA KRISHNA.
I stopped the car with the word Radha Krishna.
She - why you stopped the car Krishna.
Me - how you know I was Krishna.
She - first day when I say you in temple I got dout on you. But when I saw your hall ticket when you show your answer on first day of exam I came to clear all my dout. Then I saw my hall ticket in that it has my photo in male getup. Then I came to know what mistake I did.
She - Don't feel your secret will be safe with me.
Me - ok. But I want you to ask you one thing.
She - ask Radha.
Me - if you know truth on first day then why you acted like nothing and you kissed me on first day.
She - I acted before you to make you comfort to write exam and when came to kiss I really like your beauty and helping nature so I kissed you.
Me - come again.
She - what you want Radha.
Me - nothing you said something about like.
She - yes I like your beauty and helping nature. I know no topper student will show their answers to other but where as you, you are different.
Me - ok Gopika. But are you ok with my dressing.
She - yes I was ok with everything. It's your life and you can do what you want.
Me - but what do you think about me say truth Gopika and I made her to promo.
She - I said to you earlier that you are a nice person and had no bad intensions.
Me - Not that Gopika. Are you thinking I was like any......
She - Radha I got your intensions. We are no one to decide that it was you to decide all that.
Me - but.....
She - no more but I know you from childhood. I have full faith on you.
Me - But I want to say you the truth. I was not doing this on my will. My mom and brother made me wear this all to stop me from alcohol.
She - I know this all. Your mom has said every thing when I ask her.
Me - oh you got to know all about me.
She - yes I know all.
Me - why you enquired about me.
She - because I love.......
Me - come on Gopika.
She - nothing can we move it's getting late to movie.
Me - ok ok. I will take you on time first say what you are saying.
She - I said nothing.
Me - no you are saying something please say.
She - she become silent and signal me to move.
I started to drive towards theatre. When we reached the theatre she book tickets for romantic movie. I said I don't like this type of movie but she took me in. I have no mood to see the movie but I went along with her. When movie started I started to feel bore but later I started to get attached to sences in movie. When I was watching movie I feel Gopika placed her hand on my hand. I didn't mind and continued to watch movie. She started to rub my hand I reciprocated the same but when lights were on in interval she took her hand back. We feel shy to face eachother. So I started to move out she came along with me. I come out of theatre and sat in car and she did same. She didn't talk so I started to move the car. After some time she ask me where we are going. I said to restaurant as I was very hungry. When server was serving the food. Some curry fall on my dress so I have to change my dress. Luckily beside us we have clothes store so after having your food. Radha went to buy new clothes and I was waiting for her she took more time to come. After about 30 minutes she came with a bag when I ask her why you this much time. Then she said it was a saree store so I bought one saree along with its readymade blouse. To get alter to your size it took time.
When I saw that saree it was in yellow colour saree and I wear that saree in staff changing room and I put my clothes in that bag and took with me. When she saw me saree she said I was looking beautiful like a gold in this saree. I blush like a girl and Then we paid bill and went out and sat in our car. When I saw time it was 5 in the evening so she said let's go to park. I drove to nearby park it was almost empty so we walk for some time. When I are walk the cool hair in the park making me feel different it made my girly feelings to out. when the air touch my bare navel I feel like Haven after some time Gopika came infornt of me and kneel down on one leg and said I LOVE YOU RADHA. I was freezed for a minute and said her that i love you too. When I said those words my mom and aunty came from nowhere to us and started to congratulate us and wish us for better future.
After some time I took her to side
Me - Gopika I love you too but I can't marry you.
She - what was stopping you too marry me.
Me - I started to fall love with saree and at a time with you.
She - I know you are loving me and saree. So that I brought this saree for you.
Me - you said that it was only saree store.
She - yes it was only saree store but beside that shopping mall has there I can buy any dress but I want you to enjoy your life.
Me - how can I wear a saree and how can I became your husband by wearing saree.
She - if not husband you can be my wife.
Me - what wife....?
She - yes we can both live as two married girl friends and enjoy our life as we went.
Me - Gopika I can't understand you are you talking about me to wear this saree life long.
She - if you want I have no objection and I like to have you like that.
Me - why you like me to live like this.
She - because I was a les......
Me - what finish the sentence.
She - nothing....
I made her to promise on me to say truth.
She - yes I was a lesbian and when I saw you on first day I started to get feelings on you but when I know your gender I got angry but your helping nature made me to think. Then in happiness I kiss you from then my heart was racing to see you daily and talk to you. When I see you at exam hall my heart started to beat fast but I controlled it. After thinking many times I decided that I fell in love with you. So I enquired about you with your mom and get to know every thing about you.
Me - That was the matter. But I have a dout that you said you are a lesbian but I was a men to satisfy your desire.
She - I can manage that and I want you to wear saree daily for my happiness.
Me - ok but I want you to wear a saree daily.
She - no I can't I hate that.
Me - for me please.
After some time she convince to me but she said she wear occasionally
Me - ok you can wear saree occasionally but you are not allowed to wear pant and shirt and any western dresses for life long.
She - ok I will not wear pant shirt and western dresses.
Me - that's my girl.
We enjoyed our time as two girlfriend and went to every place where lovers go to enjoy their time when we go out she prefers me to come wearing saree so I wear saree for her and my happiness. I made her to start wearing chudidars Along with her I started to go to her beauty parlour and get what she get. Like that we enjoyed our time and we finished our b-tech with good grade.
Slowly i started to see changes in her behaviour and she got comfortable in chudidars so like my mom did to me I made her from chudidars to skrits and then to Langa Voni. Finally she started to wear saree like me. I know in this world no one can hate saree if that wear for some days. It was most comfortable and easy to handle then other. Saree can make a person beautiful. After some days my brother marriage was fixed and he explained everything to his to be wife. She understood my feels and started to support me more then my brother. I like her every much and I enjoyed her company. In my brother marriage I did every work like his sweet sister and I enjoyed my Vadhina (brother's wife) company very much. On their wedding day I wear saree and well dolled up like a groom sister.
My mom was happy when she saw my enjoyment and feel that she got a daughter who she want. After my brother marriage he took his wife to the city. After that my life was normal and I started to search for job but my identity become my only problem to get job. When I started to loose hopes I come across a job add in software field. When I go through it. It was for only ladies so I put it a said. But after some time I decided to try onces and submitted my resume to them in online. I started to live about the job. After the college over I was full free in 24/7 so my mom give complete responsibility like of our house to me. She only help me to prepare breakfast and dinner. Some times it was also difficult for her to help as she was very busy. I started to handle everything like a pro and my mom was happy as I reduced her work.
After some days I got a call from that company to attend for test and interview. I was happy but I become sad as I may not get select. But I decided to give a last try so I readied in saree in made myself to look formal and then went to that location in car. I asked receptionist about the interview. She show me the way to exam room. When I saw in that room there were very few so I got some confident. After the exam they inform that results and interview will be done afternoon so you can have lunch here in canteen or out. I decided to have here and after the lunch I waited in lobby. After some waiting results come almost all passed in that exam including me. Now we have to wait for interview. With each minutes my heart started to beat fast. They started to call one by one. When my turn came I went into interview room there was a lady who was nearly to my age.
Me - good afternoon madam.
Madam - take your seat. (She took my resume) you are Radha Krishna right.
Me - yes mam I was Radha Krishna and you can call me Radha.
Madam - that's nice and by the way I was Neha and I work as HR in this company.
She started to see my resume and after some reading she eyes wided and look at me. I started to fear.
Madam - what was your gender Radha.
Me - mam that I was a male and I wants to live like a girl.
Madam - it's interesting explain about your self.
I started to explain all how my mom made me wear all these and how I started to like to wear saree. But I didn't said about Gopika and exam matter to her.
Madam - ok Radha I like you frankness and when we come to your qualifications you are suitable for this job role but.
Me - ok mam I got it I know you can't hire male and I started to leave by saying thank you mam.
Madam - Radha please sit. I will give you a job as my PA if you give one promise to me.
Me - what was that mam I will do anything to get a job.
Madam - it's nothing you have to come to office daily in saree as PA has to look wear that more over you look beautiful in saree then anyother PA here. Main thing was that your gender will be between us and no one can know about it.
Me - madam I have to think for that.
Madam - this is my card and on that my personal number is their if you are ok to do as my PA call me. I give you 24 hours. Let me inform your decision before 24 hours. I hope a you will.
I took leave from her and started to move towards my home in my car.
When I said this to Gopika she said I have to take this job. And after that we have some talk and when it was time for my mom to return we end the call. When my mom came I said every thing to her and she also said for me to take job. That night I decided to take that job. So I inform Neha about that in morning. So she asked me to join as soon as possible. My mom ask priest for good day to join. He said I can join next day.
Next day I went to office in plain red colour saree and went to Neha madam cabin. She explained about my work and she said me to call her Neha not madam. I said ok Neha and she arranged one desk in her cabin and said it was my work table. I went near my table and started to go through what Neha said. I understand everything thing and want near Neha and said Neha I understood everything. Then she said ok I will say when you have work. So go and sit at you table. I want to my place I have no work to do so I started to recheck that files. My day was completed with less work and I reached my home and changed to another daily wear saree. After that I prepared dinner for me and my mom and waiting for her to come. After she come and get fresh up I served her dinner and while we are eating I said about my day. Then I we want to your rooms.
Daily I started to go to office in saree and no one got dout on me as I was in Neha room all the day. Days started to pass like that and one day madam give her mobile to me to attend calls and she went to meeting. When she was in meeting she got lots of messages. Massage were not stopping and phone was on vibration. When I check her phone it was from a girl and those massage were to her private number. When I check more that person name was written as lesbian partner. I was shocked to find Neha was also a lesbian. I started to think why god was making people like this. After that when I saw who was texting to Neha I got shock of my life it was Gopika.
I can't understand what God has write in my destiny. After some time Neha madam came out from her meeting and asked me if I got any calls. I said no Neha but your message box was filled. Then she check those messages and started to laugh herself. After that she ask me have I seen any message I said no then she said it was her personal. I started to observe the relation between Neha and Gopika without their knowledge. After some day I came to know all about their relationship and I decided to discuss this with them. So I planned to meet them when they are with eachother. One day I know that they are meeting in restaurant for dinner. so on that day wear one pink colour saree which they both like me wear and I followed them to that place. When they settle to eat I go near them as I don't know anything and acted like I know nothing. They started to get fear. After that order one Biryani for me. I can see their face was still in question mark face and when I got my Biryani I started to eat. Then I ask them what happen. They both said nothing and continued to eat.
After the dinner I paid the bill and took them with me to my car as I know they came here on public transport. I made them to sit in back seat and I drive to one hill station where no one was there. I like the cool breeze so I arranged campfire we sit around that campfire.
Me - can you now please say the truth.
Gopika - Radha what do you want from us and why are angry on us.
Me - stop acting. I know everything.
Gopika - that....
Neha - stop fearing Gopika. And Radha yes we are lesbian partners and we are planning to say you about this.
Me - but why Gopika why you made me love you and you did what I ask.
Gopika - Radha I love you very much and now my love has increased on you but not decreased.
Me - then why you are in relation with Neha. You made promise and now.
Neha - yes she made a promise and she stand on that but I can't leave without her in my life. So I convinced her.
Me - so when you convinced her she forgot about my promise.
Gopika - no Radha I didn't forgot.
Neha - yes Radha she didn't. Today also she met to to end our relationship. But you came when we are discussing.
Me - Don't make me fool Neha I read all you chat from that day when I saw message on that meeting day.
Neha - so know all our plan then their is nothing to hide.
Gopika - stop Neha. Radha I really love you more then anything and I want you in my life but I can't decide to take my decision to marry you as straight or be her Lesbian partners.
Neha - Radha see me what she said was true and we have only one solution for this to get out of this problem.
Me - what was that?
Neha - if you are ok we three can marry eachother.
Me - how can this possible. You are elder to me how can I marry a elder girl it was against.
Neha - who said you will marry me.
Me - then?
Neha - I will marry you and I will make you as my wife. And you can marry Gopika and you can make her what you want.
I started to think
Neha - Radha I fall in love with you when I say you on interview day but when I came to know about yourself I came to love more like Gopika did on you. After some days I met Gopika in shopping mall and when she showed your photo I said all what happen to Gopika. But Gopika said you both are in love so i decided to forgot my love on you but by seeing you daily in front of me I can't forget you. So finally we two decided to take this step if you are ok.
Me - I want to say same solution for both of you but with some conditions.
Gopika - means that you are ok.
Me - yes I am ok but I have some conditions.
Neha - what are they?
Me - I want to make you both as my wife's.
Neha - how can that possible I was elder to you. So you have to become my wife.
Me - how can I become your wife I was a men.
Neha - it was the only condition we have.
After some discussion we decided that Gopika will be my wife and I will be Neha's wife. And we discussed about this to our families and they were happy if we are happy. After consulting priest the fix my marriage date.
On my marriage day I wear bridal saree with all the jewelry and when I went to mandap I saw Neha in groom dress and Gopika was same like me but has like jewelry. When it was time for mangalsutra Neha first took mangalsutra and started to tie on neck. When she was in, Gopika took other one started to tie in my neck. I was so late to stop her she tied very fast and now I was their wife and I have two husband. When I ask Gopika why you did this. She said your mom said I can't be wife to one and husband to other. So we decided to make you wife for both.
After the marriage we three shifted to my house. My life has no change but only difference is I don't have to go for a job, my only job is to take care of the house like a housewife. Neha continued to do her HR job and Gopika open a shop to sell designer saree and lehenga for wedding and parties. She has very less work so when she has no work she help me in my works to have some time with me. This is my new life.
