RADHA KRISHNA

My name is Krishna. I used to live in Vijayawada with My father's name is Vasu Dev I love him very much. My mother's name is

Durga Devi. I have one brother he was 2 years elder to me. His name is Sri Kiran. He is like my second father.
My father works in a private company as manager. My mother was very sensitive from her childhood. She works as a teacher in a

small school. School management provide free education for me and my brother as my mother was working as teacher in their

school. My brother has done MCA in scholarship as he was brilliant student and now he was doing job in Hyderabad as software

engineer.
Where as I was doing b-tech 2nd year. I didn't cut my hair from first year as my college has no objections. Now my hair was

shoulder length hair. My mother feel sad as she didn't have any girls either. My mother feel happy with my hair as she can atleast

take care of my hair. I used to take a head bath with oil twice a week. My hair become very strong, thick and shiny like every girl

wish to have. I can see jealous in People eyes mainly in my class girls eye. Some of them used to ask me what was secret of my hair.

For that I used to say it is my mother's secret. This is me when I was going to college.
While thinking that college days are very happy. suddenly There is a bad news. My father had a heart stroke and died.
I love my father very much, It made go into depression and I stopped going to college. It has been 3 months, I Got a call from my

college that. Exams are coming. But in this 3 months I made a habit to use "drug". Sometimes even in home I used to drunk. My

mother feel very sad. One day I drank fully and when I was coming to my home on my bike that I had a minor bike accident.

Doctors said to take rest for 2 months. My elder brother came home. By seeing my situation he started scolded me. At last he said

If i did any wrong again, then he will send me out from the house and told me take 2 months bed rest. My brother took permission

from my college to written exam after I was cure.
One month has completed I started to do my little chores myself. Now my hair reached below my shoulder. My mother used to

apply hair oil regularly and now i used to take head bath trice a week. When I was eating my hair used to fell into the rice. It was

continued for some days. When my mother saw that she made my hair to make together and put a clip to hold it. I said no. But my

mom said If you didn't put clip, then your hair will get damaged So with my mother request I started putting clip in my hair. Daily

my work is to take bath and get my hair done by my mother and then we had our breakfast then My mom used to go to school and

she will come only in the evening. afternoon I am the one who eats rice. In these I started to cook rice and curries on my own.

After lunch I started to take rest.
One Sunday my Mother was cleaning house and I was helping her in small things. But when I was doing the work my hair always

fall on my face. By seeing my struggle my mother started to laugh and said to me that first we will do your hair and then we can

continue cleaning. she Oiled my hair and then she started to comb but it take long time to finish when compare to before. So asked

her what are you doing, she cursed. At last she put a ponytail on my cheeks. When I was seriously opening pony, mom scolded me

and said that if you want to grow long hair, you should wear something like this and may be more, then your hair will look good, if

not I will cut it. My mother know I love my hair for that I will do anything. So I continued to work in the same way. It was okay

for me to stay at home. Daily Mom used set my hair in pony before she gone to school. I also started to like pony and it feel very

comfortable. I don't have a big beard and mustache, so when I look in the mirror I look like the Teenage girl.
Two month has completed but I can't forget my father when I saw his photo I started to become sad. Now my bed rest was

completed so I can ride my bike. On that day I again came home by drinking. By seeing me my mother made a big fuss she didn't

ate anything. In that angry she burnt all My clothes. Next day I did my bath and I open my wardrobe to find no clothes to wear

then I started to recall what happen yesterday night. When I asked mom for clothes, mom didn't say anything. I understand that

mom is angry. I can wear my brother clothes but they are very loss for my size. Because He was fat guy and I was slim like a girl.

So I went my mom room and started to search in her wardrobe and at last I decided to wear nightie and I wear one nightie and

stood in front of her. Mom smiled at me once. I felt happy too. Mom said I was looking good in nightie with ponytail and put one

kiss on my forehead. she said I can wear this nightie untill she brought me new clothes. Then I ask her how can I go out in this

nightie mom? For that she replied What do you have to do outside, you only go out to drink? If this is the case, you won't have a

chance to go out. I started to wear nightie from that day onwards to make her happy. One day in the evening I heard doorbell I

thought it was my mother so I opened the door to find my brother in front of me. He started to laugh. I can't understand why he

was laughing loud when I see down I came to know I was in nightie now and become statue. I don't know what to say and how to

react.
After some time he ask me will you allow me inside and snap his finger. With that action I came to senses and give him a way to

come in. I was silent and he was still laughing. It continued till my mom come. When my mom say my brother
Mom - Kiran when did you came?
Kiran - just now mom.
Mom - have you drink water?
Kiran - no mom. See how she stood like a statue. She didn't ask me.
Mom - Krishna bring water for us.
I went to kitchen and took water for them in two glasses.
Kiran - mom what all this why he was in nightie.
Then mom started to narrate whole story and then at last she said it was the only way I found him not to allow him out.
Kiran - it's right mom but he was a boy mom.
Mom - yes he was a boy but he himself want into it.
Kiran - as you wish mom. I don't say any word against you. If I thought his future was collapsed then I will not tolerate.
Mom - I know what to do and when to stop.
Kiran - ok mom. I have full faith on you.
Mom - Kiran tomorrow we have to go shopping to buy new clothes to Krishna as he can't wear nightie in day time.
Kiran - ok mom.
That day I can't face my brother. After some time he said I was looking beautiful in avatar and he was happy for my future. I

started to feel little comfortable. After dinner I slept with my brother in one room. And my mother slept in another room. I can't

get sleep as I feel embrace to sleep beside my brother in nightie. Next day was Sunday my mother school was holiday and on that

day when come out from my room after having my daily chores I saw my mother and brother was talking about a matter very

seriously. But when they saw me they stop to discuss. I ask my mom what happen anything serious say to me you may find solution.

But she said nothing. Well after we finish our breakfast they said they are going out to buy clothes for me and she has little

shopping. I was happy that after a gap I can came out of this nightie. In that happiness I started prepared my brother's favourite

dish for lunch. I completed to preparing dish before they come.
They come with many shopping bags. My mother order me to serve food to them as they are very hungry. So we three started to

have our lunch. My brother took leave from us and went to catch his train After finishing his lunch. While he was leaving he said

don't say any word against mom she was doing this for your bright future. After some time When I saw into those bags I found

ladies clothes . Like chudidars, skrits and Langa Voni. After I completed in checking all the shopping bag. I complaint to my

mother that you took worng bags.
Mom - no we took right bags
Me - no mom it contain ladies clothes.
Mom - yes I know it ladies clothes and I brought them for you.
I got angry on my mother and went into the room saying that I don't want any clothes. Next day I got up and took a bath. Then I

wore my pant and shirt which I wore on that day. It was the only my male clothes I have. By seeing me my mother did nothing and

continued with her work. That day was completed. Next day also I wore same dress after the bath. My mother said nothing. I wore

same dress for four days I was smiling bad even perfume can't help me.
Mom - you are smiling like a pig. Go and wear your new clothes.
Me - no those are not my clothes. I will never wear them
On that day I wash my clothes and meanwhile I wore towel and when my clothes were dry I worn. It continued for two week. In

this two week they become torn. Now I have no clothes. So my ego made me not to wear those girly clothes. So I started to wear

only towel. It continued for two day and I got fever due to cold as it was now time for winter. Mom become very sad and said to me

that she brought those clothes only for my better future and said remember your brother words what he said when he was leaving.

We are doing this to make you get out of bad habits.
I started to think and came to understand her. She was doing this for my future. With shy I said do as you wish mom. My mom was

happy and then she took those shopping bag. From that she took innerware and give me. Those are panty, bra and camisole. By

seeing that I said no but my mom said I required this and you can't wear them without this. She made me convinced and then I

wore pantie and then she made wear bra and then camisole. Later she stuffed some cotton balls in my bra cups. Then pant and

top. When I saw down I can see Bulge on my chest it was like real girl chest. Then she started to pin dupatta on my shoulder.
Me - no mom I don't require it.
Mom - you have to wear and it must.
Me - I was not a girl to wear this and I may not require it as I will be in home.
Mom - in home or out you have to wear this to cover your BREASTS. I won't allow you out without this.
Me - (in anger) mom I was not a girl and they are not real breast to cover.
Mom - if you don't want to wear this DUPATTA then remove this dress. I will say to your brother that you are not listening to my

words.
I started to think why I was doing this buzz. I have to do when she made me wear inners. I have wear most girly cloth BRA and

now this DUPATTA can't do anything so I said ok. My mom made me wear and said I have to see you always wear dupatta 24/7. I

shake my head to say ok. Then she took all clothes from shopping bag and started to arrange in my wardrobe. I started to count

those dresses they are 5 chudidars 5 skrit alone with its matching tops and 2 Langa Voni. At last she took all inner from one

shopping bag when I saw then they are of different type and different colour to match those clothes. When she was arranging I

started to feel itching at some parts mainly at my private place. By seeing me she ask me what happen.
Me - nothing mom I feel itchy due to new clothes.
Mom - it was not because of new clothes.
Me - then.
Mom - I know the solution. Tomorrow when you are going for bath remember be I will say you.
Me - ok mom
That day I slept in that dress. I feel hard to sleep due to tightness of bra. On that day I can't get sleep. Next day morning when I

look into mirror I say my face like a young girl who was just got up from her bed because my hair was messy and my dupatta. I

can't say in my words. After that I finish my morning chores and when I started to go for bath I remember that my mother said to

remember her for solution. So I call my mother to ask for solution. She give a bowl containing some cream and said how to use. I

applied it on my body as she said and when I took bath after some time my body hair started to get wash with that cream. I don't

know what to do so I completed my bath and came out with towel around my waist to find my mother in my room with another

chudidars along with its matching inners. I took pantie and wore in bathroom. I have to say one thing that I feel softness of panty

because I have no hair on my body. I come out in towel around my waist.
Mom - Krishna from now you have to wear your towel above your chest under your hands like a girl.
Me - but mom...
Mom - no more but's. Wear this bra.
I took that bra and started to wear. I feel hard to wear. So I ask my mother help. She hold my hands and guide me to wear it. She

made me do it for some time. Then she stuffed my bra cups. Then I wore camisole, next pant, then top. Next came the dupatta. She

made to fold and pin it on my shoulder. When I did she said good girl now come breakfast was completed. I feel shy when she said

good girl. After some time I come to know I was shying like a girl. Then like every day I went to puja mandir and did small prayer

to God and I put Sindoor on my forehead between my eyebrows. By seeing me my mother said I was looking good and she made a

kiss on my cheek. When we finish your breakfast. My mother did my hair in pony and went to her school. These soft clothes on my

hair less body making me feel horny but I controlled. After some time when I was in my room I saw a girl in chudidar without

makeup in mirror facing me. I can say with makeup this girl will definitely look like a angel. If she was real then I will marry her

on the spot. After some staring I made my lunch and had it when it was hot. I need a rest very badly as yesterday night I have not

slept to due tightness of bra. Same as night I feel hard to sleep wearing bra so I took my top camisole and then bra. After that I

wore camisole, top and I pinned dupatta. After that I got my sleep very peacefully.
In the evening my mom came into house using her second key. She saw I was sleep like a nothing happen. By seeing my cute face

she made a kiss on my forehead. By that I was out from sleep. When I saw my mom in front of me I asked her mom you. How did

you came? She replied that By using her spare key. I said oh ok. By seeing my flat chest she did you remove your bra. I bow my

head down and said mom I feel hard to sleep wearing bra. My mom said ok and then she order me come out after wearing bra.
I did what she said but when I started to come out of my room I saw that girl again in mirror so I was looking her face and stood

their for some time. Meanwhile, my mom came from behind and asked with a smile that did you like her. I said her (in trance) that

yes mom. When I completed those words I came to my senses and said no mom nothing I was just seeing how I look. My mom said

ok ok. I feel ashamed to face her. After that I helped my mom in kitchen as usual. But today I feel disturb due to my dupatta. By

seeing my struggle my mom give some tips to me how to handle it in different situations. I liked those moments and I can see

happiness in my mom eyes. She was starving to have a girl child to her now she can have one that is me. After completion of dinner

my mom call me into her room when I went.
Mom - Krishna will you do one thing for me.
Me - mom first say what was that.
Mom - promise me first I will say it was very easy and by that you can look beautiful.
Me - (in my mind voice I know she was planning for some thing) but I can't do anything now so I give her promise I will do as you

said.
Mom - from today you have wear these and showed earrings, bangles and anklets.
Me - mom it was too much.
She started to put earrings in my already pierced ear my bad luck holes didn't close. Then she put 6 bangles in each hand and

anklets which have lots of bells.
Mom - Krishna Got used to sleep wearing bra. If you got used to that you can feel free when you wear other tight dresses.
Me - But mom why I have to wear tight dresses mom I can wear these chudidars which are easy and loss to wear.
Mom - No these chudidars skrits and Langa Vani are for some day but sarees are permanent.
I was shocked to hear the word saree.
Me - mom I can't wear sarees. You want me to be in home and made me wear these chudidars. Chudidars are high for me to not to

go out.
Mom - you have grown up. A girl in your age have to wear Langa Vani but as you are my daughter so you have wear sarees.
Me - but mom I was your son not daughter
Mom - no more but's and do as I say. Or I will not talk to you from now.
She know I will do anything for her happiness. From that day i started to wear bra even to sleep. Slowly I got used to thightness of

bra. In this days I started to get ready on myself daily I have to wear matching bangles to dress and sometime I have to comb my

hair myself. I can wear every thing on my own. My mom made me wash my clothes on my own So for me it was extra task. I see

changes in my body as my fat started to get burn and my belly started to become flat and in shape like a girl.
After some days on Sunday when my mom was in home she made me wear sky blue colour skrit and black colour top to match

with skrit along with matching bra, pantie, camisole and petticoat. Then she started to comb my hair which was reaching my mid

back. Today she was taking more time when compare to before and I can feel something was different. Aftersome time she kept a

single braid on my shoulder. I high tone I said mom and started to remove that but she stopped me and said please keep that for

me. By seeing her face I said ok. I feel different and hard to walk wearing skrit.
There was no different in my daily routine now I have to wear a skrit and top along with inners and matching bangles. From that

day onwards I didn't took my earrings and anklets they become my part of my body. When I was ready I will help my mom in

kitchen and when she went to school I have wash utensils and then our used clothes. When I have completed washing and speeding

them on rope on my terrace. In that time My heart used to beat fast if anyone saw me then I future. After that I have to prepare

lunch and then I will have my lunch. Then I can have some sleep. In the evening before my mom came I clean my house with

broom stick. After that I did face wash and make my face fresh. When my mom came I prepare tea for us and I serve her. Then

after some time I help my mom in preparing dinner. After dinner my mom used to train me in various girly accepts like how to

behave with others like girl. How to handle different situation like a girl. Slowly my mom started to prepare me mentally a girl.

When It was time for bed I will change my clothes to chudidar but some time I used to sleep in skrit and top.
Days were passing my mom made me learn how to braid my own hair in different styles to match different occasions. I was

confused why I need to learn as I will be in home. From some days I can't get sleep in the afternoon so I started to study. As I have

to write my exams. After some day my mom made me woke up early in the morning and told me to get ready When asked why,
Mom - Krishna it was start of month sharvan.
Me - what it was means.
Mom - This Sravana month is very special for girls.
Me - Then Why did you wake me up so early?
Mom - you should be like a girl today
I was shocked again and I started to sleep again by screaming mom. My mom started to convince me. I have no interest in all this

but I thought I was living like a girl from some day then what will happen if I did month of shravan. When I said ok she was over

the moon.
She made take head bath with soap nuts and that she applied Sunnipindi on my body and then when she finish my bath My mom

applied sambrani to my hair. I felt like PRINCESS. Then my mom went to her room to change her saree as it become wet. In

meantime I put on a fan in my room. After some time my came to my room and took new dress from my wardrobe. When I see that

it is Langa Voni. i was shouted to see that and I said no. Then my mom started to become sad. By seeing her face I admitted that I

will stay in home. Then she give me bra and pantie I wear it in bathroom and come. Next my mom made me wear blouse it fit me

like it was made for me. Then she made me wear petticoat and Langa and tied the knot very tightly. When I complaint it to her.

She said it has to be like that. Then come the last piece of cloth Voni. Mom taught me how to dress in that. I also try for some time.

Then my Mom started braids my hair today she added hair extensions and at last she added jadagantalu. When she put my hair on

my shoulder I feel lot of weight. I know I can't do anything now. so I did nothing. Next she started applying some makeup I sit

their like a idle after my makeup done my mother started to put jewelry. first took my earring out and started to put heavy

jhumkas which has extension which had to pin in my hair. I said these are heavy. She said for this one day from Tomorrow you can

change to light one. she put two golden and 12 bangles in each hands. Then golden harram around my neck. Then golden waist

band. Then came golden maangtikka. When everything was completely ready, she took me in front of the mirror. I saw a angel in

mirror and I was seeing her like that without a blink. My Mom noticed me and asked if the girl liked that girl. I said yes mom and

hug her and started to cry. Mom also cried. After some time my mom adjust my makeup.
After that I ask my mom whether she is going to school or not, she said no, I have taken leave for today because I have to do pooja

and go to the temple. I said okay and started to leave to watch TV. But my mom took me along with her to do pooja. Mom I can't

do this girl Pooja. My mom said who said this was a girl Pooja. But mom. Now listen to me and do this Pooja for your well being.

So I sat near pooja. It took two hours to complete Pooja. After Pooja completed I started to go into my room. My mom called me

when I opened my room door and said that we have go to the temple. I was fear to go out in this avatar. If a person find out I was

boy dressed as girl then they will made me into comedy piece for them. So I said I will not come out of house and if you want you

go to temple, but mom says that, after completion of Pooja we have to go to temple for ammavari Darshanam, more over who will

find you, I am there to save you, anyone can find a beautiful girl wearing Langa Vani but no one can find you are a boy dressed as

girl. By my mom word I got convinced fact is that I was now an angel who was wearing this Langa voni. My mom give one of her

sandals to me to wear. Then when I step out of house I started to get tension that my friends or my neighbour may find me out on

the way. We went to Ammavari temple in auto. Outside the temple their are many stalls who sells coconut tree, flowers and all

Pooja items. One old woman stopped us and asked to buy some flowers to put in your daughter hair. My mother has put some

flowers but she didn't put flowers in my hair. Without making much bargain my mom took 3 murras jasmine garland and put in

my braid. The smell of jasmine was taking me into trance. By seeing me like this my mom become so happy and said I was her gold

and made a kiss on my forehead. I was happy to see my mom happy. After that we entered into temple and I complete all the

rituals as my mom said. Then after the dharsham we started to leave to our house but on our way we find our neighbour aunty.

Who was our long relative as per relation she was my mother-in-law. By seeing us she wished us and after some well being she ask

my mother who was I. Then my mother said I was her sisters daughter Radha. I forgot to say you that my full name was Radha

Krishna.