My Name is Hari and I am a college student. I stay with my parents. They are very affectionate towards me. They spend more time in office and get less time to spend for me. I study well, but I got severe fever in final year examination, so I could not score excellent marks. My parents joined me in engineering in some other city. They decided to do this, so that I will get some responsibility.
They gave internet connection during my twelvth vacations, so that I can learn a lot of useful things. But, I began to use it in a wrong way. Even though, there were a lot of bad results after using internet, I could not stop using them in a bad way. My age was the main reason for doing so. I had a strange habit. I like to wear women’s clothes and I was so much desperate in doing it.
I was unable to control it. Whenever, I was alone in my home, I used to wear my mother’s dress and think myself as a women. I never knew, if it was right or wrong. I feel it was wrong but I was not able to stop doing it. There are a lot of people known as crossdressers, who also have a habit like this and I got to know about crossdressers from internet.
After connecting with them, I understood that there is nothing wrong for a guy to dress like women, but I don’t know why guys have these restrictions. Girls are wearing Shirt and Pant like men, there is nothing wrong or no restriction for them. But why do they restrict men to wear sarees, chudi and other girly dresses. I got angry on the society. If a guy wear these dresses the society calls us Transgender, Hijda and other bad names.
Each and every guy has a women inside him, but she is invisible to most of us. The person who is women by heart as well as dressing is Transgender, the person who is women by dressing is called as crossdresser.I started chatting with a lot of persons in facebook. I used to login to facebook in my crossdresser account than the real account. There were a lot of real crossdressers but they stayed very far from me.
They considered me as fake and was never ready to help me. I thought of getting help from certain guys who call themselves as CD admirers but they demanded sex from me. I did not know what to do. I can wear my mom’s dresses whenever I am in home and control my Crossdressing desires. What will happen to me, when I stay away from home ?
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