The Upgrade of Vijay to Vijaya

That evening, his parents learnt what happened at school. They both went to school next day and thanked his friends first. They meet the principal and tell him that they don't want to force anything on their child. They want him to explore his own path . They also told him that he is too young to understand sexuality and that they will be with him in whichever path he chooses. They understood the problem of the school aswell. They promised the principal that such things will not happen again. They sought help from school to protect their child from any sort of bullying or abuse at school. Principal accepts the proposal and initiates a medical test for the child which confirms that biologically he is a complete male. Thus he goes through the school without any problem till he passes his 12th standard. He no longer needed any more friends. He no longer needed anybody's approval or acceptance as everyone important in his life have accepted him the way he is. He and his friends joined in integrated BBA+MBA program where their bonds increased. Vijay learns to hide his female persona. He maintains long hair but in manly fashion to college and girly fashion when he becomes Vijaya in Home or his friends.

He was invited to a girls sleepover by his friends in the holidays after 12th. His mother did not allow him. His friends also pleaded his mom. She said she needed time to think. He was upset with this and discussed with his neighbour aunty. She comforted him and said she will handle. Next day, when Vijay was watching a movie, his aunty came and went into the kitchen. She spoke to his mom for almost an hour and left. Later that afternoon, his mom called him into her bedroom. She wanted him to wear a saree. He readily accepted it without even asking why. He was so happy as if he was waiting for that day from many years. She helped him wear it perfectly and said he must wear only sarees for the next one week. Only then he will be allowed to go for sleepovers with friends. He did not question her logic. All he wanted was to be with his friends. So he accepted it. That night when his dad came home, he was pleasantly surprised. He was almost in his tears. When Vijay and his mom asked him why he was crying. He said "It suddenly flashed that one day I will have to marry off my daughter to a suitable groom and that she will go away with him".

Vijay - Dad...., forget it. I'm not going to go away. I will be with you forever.

His mom thought he was telling that he is a boy and he will marry a girl and get her to their home. But infact vijay's mind got trained so perfectly that he did not see himself as a boy now. He continued....

Vijay - I will marry only that person who will agree to stay with us.

Dad - Okay beti, we will find a groom who will stay with us.
Mom - Why are you saying like that. He will marry a bride.

Vijay - Blushing.... Enough Maa & Paa... I'm not marrying anyone now. Let's go eat. Dad, by the way how do I look in mom's Saree?

Dad - you look just like my mom. I loved her a lot. I miss her.

Vijay- okay Dad... From now on, for a week, you will have your mom in our house. You can call me Maa

Dad - Thanks Maa.

Vijay - Bahu rani...., what are you doing? My son has arrived. Go on and bring the food while he gets fresh.

Mom - Okay Sasu Maa...

All laughed and enjoyed the dinner. His mom made him sleep with him that night. First Vijay changed into his night wear and sat on the bed reading something. Later his mom came and started removing her saree. She expected her son to react and offer to go out atleast. But Vijay just smiled at her and continued reading. She removed her saree and blouse. She was only in her bra and petticoat. She observed that Vijay did not care.

Mom- Vijji, come here and rub this body lotion on my back.
Vijay - okay Maa.

Vijay was just reacting as if he was really her daughter. She slowly unhooked her bra and held it covering her breasts. He did not even flinch. He continued rubbing the lotion. She could sense no awkwardness or strangeness in his touch. She understood he was not thinking of himself as a boy now. So she wanted to talk to him...

Mom - Vijay...
No response....
Mom - Vijji...
Vijay- Yes Maa.
Mom- Why you did not answer when I called you first time?
Vijay - You called me only once na maa...
Mom - No... You responded only when I called you the second time.
Vijay - No maa... I answered you the moment you called me Vijji. I noticed that you called Vijay first. He did not respond as he is not there here.
Mom- i want to talk to Vijay
Vijay - Okay maa. I will go out and send him. Better wear some clothes.
Mom- No need. stay here. I want to talk to you.
Vijay - Go on maa... I'm listening... But please pass on that lotion bottle
Mom - Where is Vijay?
Vijay - He is sleeping inside me. He will wake up if I sleep.
Mom - Why are you talking like this?
Vijay - What happened maa?
Mom - You are behaving like a person with split personality disorder. Like they show in movies.

Vijay - Okay maa... I understood. Don't be afraid. I knew you were testing me. Otherwise you will never remove your clothes in front of me. I know aunty spoke to you something for very long time today. Aunty made me realise that I can be both Male and Female. But not at a time. If I'm dressed like This, I'm your daughter. If I'm dressed like that I will be your son. No confusion in this. I am a perfect male who enjoys being a woman as well. All my life, you, dad and my friends helped me with attaining this level of understanding. I do not see genders when I see people. I see a human in a certain dress. I see the soul within. I know you are afraid to send me to the girls sleepover. But please understand it's not a GIRLS sleepover. It's a FRIENDS sleepover. My friends see me as Vijaya when I am dressed like Vijaya. They see me as Vijaya when I am dressed a s Vijay. Clothes don't define me. For me, Either Vijay or Vijaya, I'm the same person. For others, I show only one gender at a time. I do not mix and confuse them unless I'm pranking them.

Mom - But Vijay... Sorry Vijji..., what about the future? The society ? Your life? Your marriage? Kids?

Vijay - Too many questions maa... Let me live one day at a time. God willing, I will get a wife who can understand me thoroughly.

Mom - You are just 20 yr old. How did you get this much understanding? It's unusual. Many boys I know are clueless even after 30 yrs.

Vijay - Chill maa... Enjoy the present. You need anything more from your daughter?

Mom - No... I'm convinced that My child is perfect human being. I'm proud of you. Now wait till I get dressed and then go out and send your dad. You may sleep in your room.

Next Day after morning routine...

Dad - Vijaya...

Vijay - Yes Daddy.

Dad - Your Mom told me about your last night's conversation. I want to talk ... Man to Man...

Vijay - Are you comfortable speaking to your Son in Saree? Mom asked me to wear sarees only.

Dad - Never mind. I was told you have adapted to both perfectly. You do not see gender.

Vijay - Yes Daddy.

Dad - Then come sit. I want to know what you know about Gender.

Vijay - Gender is a biological type of a species Daddy. It could either be Male, Female or in some cases Both.

Dad - What is your Gender?

Vijay - Male Daddy.

Dad - What is the roles of a Males and Females?

Vijay - Males and females have same role of protecting their species and procreating.

Dad - Tell me separately.

Vijay - There is no difference as such in the larger roles daddy. But there is a biological difference that Males insert their DNA into the DNA of the females. Females accept the DNA and let the natural process complete in their bodies where in a new offspring of the species is formed. After the offspring is born, they both have equal responsibilities. Initially the females lactate to feed the baby as a natural process.

Dad- You mean to say the role of females is more?

Vijay - Yes Daddy. The woman have greater role in this natural process. Hence the society, over the centuries, got built in such a way that Man Provides and Woman Nurtures. That is the main reason I adore womanhood. I respect and worship womanhood. I consider them as slightly above men. Hence I like being Vijaya.

Dad - If there is a choice you have to make, what will you be permanently? Vijay or Vijaya?
Vijay - I am Born as Vijay. Im studying as Vijay. So I'm sure I will be working as Vijay as well. I don't want to fail at that job. But at the same time, I have developed this personna of Vijaya as well. My family and friends like being with Vijaya more. So naturally I like being Vijaya More.

Dad - But what about your future? Your marriage? Will anyone of your friends marry you?
Vijay - I don't want to marry any of my friends Daddy. I believe in god. I leave it to him. I'm sure he will send someone i truly deserve. And he made me adaptible. So I will adapt to whatever person I marry to. As I'm a genetic male, it will obviously be a genetic female. But, mentally, I would love the person to be as flexible as me.

Dad - Which girl will accept you like this? May be it is our fault as well. We should not have encouraged you like this. Your life will be ruined if you don't stop being Vijaya. Don't think about us... Think about you.
Vijay - No Daddy, I consider Vijaya as an upgrade to Vijay. So no going back. Let me try my luck and believe in god. Ins u're he will send someone who fully understands me.

Dad - I have no words. You are too intelligent for me to convince you. I too leave it to God.